(I so need to update this entire blog, arrghhh. I have friends who blog consistently & I’m feeling like I need to do something with mine, just don’t know if I have the time….And this is my attempt to revive my writing for the 42nd time! Double arrgghhh)
Am I vain? Yes and no. Yes, because I like to look at myself in the mirror. I like to look good. Growing up, my sisters and I would dance around silly, we play modelling by wearing our mum’s clothes and strutting down a pretend walkway. We even play Miss Universe where we take turns to hold the title and wave our hands smiling at the pretend camera..ok this is getting embarrassing, I won’t say any more. Today, I still like trying out different clothes I have or in the shops to see how the latest trends look on me. I rummage through my sister’s wardrobe when I visit them. I watch make-up tutorials on YouTube to learn how to enhance my eyes, do an egg facial (sounds yuck but it really feels good after) and do my own manicure. So yes, I am your typical vain woman.
But I say no to being vain as well. Because I don’t like spending too much time & money to look good. I won’t sign a two-thousand dollar package on spas or facials that requires me to use up 3 hours of my precious weekend just on self-pampering. I won’t spend on expensive skincare products. I don’t take 2 hours to beautify myself before going out. I have yet to pay for a pedicure. Yes, that’s right. I have never once stepped into a shop to do a pedicure (maybe one day I will).That doesn’t mean to say I roll my eyes at someone else who does. But these are things I don’t do. And don’t even mention Botox or other more invasion beauty treatments one could have these days to make yourself look better, slimmer, younger. Again, no judgement on those who do. Just something I never thought to explore.
So my skin has been problematic in the past few years which I put down to the move to Singapore and changes in my environment. Then I started running more so being exposed to sun for longer periods worsened my skin. I would often forget to apply sunblock. Also, I always thought that it is unnecessary to protect my skin if I were to just walk to the market or Kai’s school and back. No harm. Just a little sun here and there won’t hurt.
But I started to realise I have spots on my face. Instead of upping my vanity, say no to spots and do something about it, I just put it down to normal imperfections one could have as they age …I’m all about ageing gracefully right? Taking it as it comes, right? Don’t be so vain, right? But then, the spots grew bigger very slowly. One pop up just above my eyelid and grew to the point it became noticeable to others. And that was when I thought, things growing in size isn’t normal. I better get it checked. The GP who does minor procedures cut it off, said it was some kind of wart and it was infectious. The term “infectious” should have rung a warning bell in my head, but his blasé attitude about it and failure to tell me more made me forget about my other spots for a while. That was mid this year. Then recently I noticed one area at the side of my face started increasing in size, went back to the doctor and he blasted this freezing thing to kill the growth. This time, I was adamant to get more information out of him. Again, I found out that the growth is a kind of wart, it is infectious, can spread, and will continue to grow in size. And that made me decide I need to see a dermatologist to remove other spots using laser.
I went to the dermatologist yesterday. He looked at my face for…5 seconds..pulled out a paper, mumbled something then said “ahhh altogether treatment will cost $800…” …..????!!!!…..Eight hundred dollars? Errmmm…Can I get back to you, I need to talk to my husband (the accountant!!!) about this. To cut the long story short, I went ahead with the laser treatment after poking and prodding about my condition, my lack of medical insurance to cover the cost etc etc. Personally, I think many doctors are such poor communicators and educators. If more information were to be relayed to me by the first doctor, I could have done something about it earlier rather than later. Maybe this isn’t life threatening so it isn’t important to talk about it? I don’t know.
Anyway, I’m now seated in front of my computer with red spots….Over 20 of them…all lasered out. Had I been a little MORE VAIN, I would have told myself, I don’t want an imperfect complexion, I want to do something about it. But being NOT SO VAIN, I thought it is just…well, me. I have never had perfect skin. I can live with these imperfections. Thankfully, I was A LITTLE VAIN because spending time looking in the mirror made me notice changes in the spots I had. In all these time, I’ve been also reading more about skin health and the book I have said there are more incidence of young people are having skin cancer on their face because of prolonged exposure to phone screens and wifi. Wifi signals also disrupts sleep patterns which affect your skin’s ability to heal at night. I’m not sure how much of that is true but I’ve since completely switched off my phone during bedtimes. And I’m thankful the spots I have are benign.
Other information about skin health I’ve learned include:
– skin health relates closely to the health of your internal systems. Any changes (which we have always put down to normal ageing process, a thinking that should change) in the skin is a sign that something is wrong on the inside. Inside could mean mental, emotional health or your internal organs. Skin health and gut health is closely related as well. Look after your gut, you look after your skin and vice versa.
– there are food that provides natural SPF, the same food that protects you from ill health…Fruits and vegetables, fish oils, food rich in good bacteria just to name a few. Apple sunscreen according to the directions stated on the product. Sunscreen applied in the morning won’t last and give you protection throughout the day. Keep on applying.
– how you cook your food is important. Eating food cooked in high heat in the absence of moisture ie grilling, frying, roasting, barbecuing causes your skin to age faster. It is better to cook food with water ie boiling, steaming, poaching etc
-too much sugar in your diet in the form of carbohydrates or just plain sugar, ages you very quickly as well. It breaks down collagen in your skin. So it pays to cut sugar and carbs from your diet.
-dim, dark surrounding just before bedtime, plus enough sleep and rest is so important for skin repair. I think we all know that at the back of our minds but we don’t do this enough.
There are plenty more information I have read. And I’ve since fine-tuned my diet base on what I’ve been reading. Basically, I now know that if I take steps to look after my skin, I’m directly affecting my inner health and overall well being. I mean, who desires to have flawed skin? Who wouldn’t appreciate a nice, smooth and clear complexion? When you look at yourself in the mirror and are happy with what you see, you feel good about yourself and you have that base level of confidence to face the day and achieve things.
So look after yourself. Be a little vain. If there are changes you notice in your body, whether a growing spot on your face or pain that doesn’t go away, don’t leave it unchecked. Deal with it. Ask questions. Read to know more. Ask for help. Be healthy and fit so you can be happy and live the life you want.
The kids noticed my face this morning and ask what happened to me.
“I have yucky stuff growing on my face and the doctor used a laser gun to zap zap zap it all away!”
They screamed and ran off .